I am...

feeling: Happy
watching: Nada

I got baptised yesterday =']

I was so happy... I dno, actually it's been a bit strange for me. Just before my baptism I felt a little distant from God because I hadn't spent as much time with Him as I should have done...

Cos I've recently become very interested in a Korean band called DBSK (Dong Bang Shin Ki) after watching the Korean show Star King with Ye Eun, so I've just been staying up really late watching vids of them on YouTube...

I hadn't prayed to God properly for ages and... Ugh I just... didn't have a good morning either. And when I got there, because everyone had a written copy of my testimony before I'd even gone up to give my testimony, a couple of friends of mine were sorta laughing at me over my testimony and one was reading it in front of me which really stressed me out.

I cannot stand having my stuff read out to me. I hated that everyone had a written copy of my testimony and it irked me even more that they were talking to me about it before I'd even given my testimony.

I'm one of those people who hates having her work read out to her. I hate re-reading my own stuff too. I couldn't even bring myself to read the Chinese translation of my testimony that Carrie did for me. I got as far as the first few words and I had to stop reading.

And just... stuff like that, it stressed me out... And I just didn't feel as close to God and I felt really strange >_<

But afterwards, as the Baptisms were going ahead (there were 5 of us in total) I couldn't help my tears... Like I'd said in my testimony, it felt like a very, very long engagement to God and I was now finally getting married to Him and I just felt so happy and wonderful and... wow...

And I cried as my turn to be baptised came...

My dad was recording it and it was being projected onto the screen so people could see what was going on and I found out later that he'd zoomed in on my face as I was crying. Joy =_=;; Now there's even less of a chance I'd ever watch the baptism video. Oh. I hate seeing myself on video too. I can't stand watching myself when it's me speaking or something. I can handle watching myself play piano though.

But afterward the baptism, it didn't really feel that different... Many people were like 'how do you feel???' as if expecting a massive change or something, but I dno... I didn't feel that different. I did feel a little more mature though.

Anyways, I'm slowly getting back into my relationship with God. I know I haven't been as close to Him as I should have done lately and I know that's because of Satan's temptations and I haven't been able to drag myself away from the computer to pray properly so I'm still praying for strength, but I'm glad I've finally taken that step of obedience. My time came and I just knew it had to be done :)

Sorry I don't have any photos from it ^^;; Well, there are a couple on Facebook but... I'm too lazy to upload anything... >_>;;

I've been feeling so strange lately though because of DBSK. It's not the first time I've really wanted to meet a celebrity (or in this case, a group) but can't. Although I will hopefully be going to China at the end of this year so I'm really hoping I'll be able to meet them.

Cept they don't speak English or Chinese well and my Japanese is very limited and my Korean is as good as my Spanish (meaning I can say 'hello' and 'thank you' and that's about it ._.) so I really don't know what I'm going to do...

Either way, trust in the Lord and see where he leads me.

L8r,

—×Kuri×—

well i dont see why they should be giving out copies of someone's testimony... if you catch what their saying, good for you and if you dont, you don't.
» Nuttz on 2008-03-17 10:47:33

u can try learning reading the basic chinese now...
» renaye on 2008-03-17 11:50:29

yeahhh but our church is chinese/english and some of the elderly aren't so good at english so they wanted it translated and printed for them. i said it should just go on a projector, but they insisted having it printed =_= xxx
» Kuri on 2008-03-17 12:43:50

Congratulations on getting baptized! And I definitely know what you mean about not being as close to God as one should be..I'm in a similar boat right now.
» lwelizabeth on 2008-03-17 08:07:16

:)
I struggle also. Good luck!
» middaymoon on 2008-03-17 10:58:06

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